Wednesday, January 02, 2008
I love my besties - Cass, Brenda, Shannon, Jacinta, Joe and Lois. =)
4:16 PM; unforgotten.Y
Its the second day of 2008. And still....ever since that ' fight' no one at home is still talking to me..=( Everyone else is either working, sec5 or they went for the 3 week jc thingy. I feel so bored and lonely at home..this sucks! And...its like the end of secondary school life for most of us. Soon we will be moving on to a poly or jc. And its definetely no guarantee that we will end up in the same poly or jc and in the same course together. Its like..everyone is moving on with their own life and in separate directions... =( I can still make new friends but it wont be the same. I am sooo sooo gonna miss everyone when the time comes...
And...people close to me wants to migrate. Like...Jacinta, Shannon and Cass....=(
I FEEL SO LONELY!
And...people close to me wants to migrate. Like...Jacinta, Shannon and Cass....=(
I FEEL SO LONELY!
4:09 PM; unforgotten.Y
Monday, December 03, 2007
Yeah..i know its been a LONG LONG time...
Just felt like blogging again...
Well the O's are over and the holidays have started..
At first it was okay..
I was glad that there wasnt gonna be any more school..
However.....now im kinda 'hating' the holidays cause like...
ITS SOOOOOO BORING LUH!
Anyways, im currently feeling upset..
Yes this is the main reason why i felt like blogging..
Im confused..
I dont know if im over Pradeep...
Sometimes i think i am..
Other times i think im not..
Like what the heck?!?!
I dont know la...
Im just super hurt over everything that has happened...
And...its been 6 months now..
Teacher Pam along with 5 others thinks im not myself anymore..
Teacher Pam said she noticed that im like loosing the joy in me since 6 months ago..
And you know what..
I feel it too..
Im like always sooo upset these days...
And the reason is because of Pradeep..
He is like there..
Always stuck at the back of my heart and somewhere deep down my heart.
He is just there to ruin my life..
But...i still like him...I THINK...
I dont know luh..
This just sucks...
And thats not all...
I freaking miss my friend like crazy...
He really means a lot to me..
We were supposed to go through these kinda things together..
THATS WHAT HE TOLD ME!
And right now..
I need him..
My friend..
He is just not there....anymore...
Its really upsetting..
And right now, i cant stop crying...
I lost two very important people in my life...
I cant say anything any further
God..if you are really up there...just please....get me my friend back....
Just felt like blogging again...
Well the O's are over and the holidays have started..
At first it was okay..
I was glad that there wasnt gonna be any more school..
However.....now im kinda 'hating' the holidays cause like...
ITS SOOOOOO BORING LUH!
Anyways, im currently feeling upset..
Yes this is the main reason why i felt like blogging..
Im confused..
I dont know if im over Pradeep...
Sometimes i think i am..
Other times i think im not..
Like what the heck?!?!
I dont know la...
Im just super hurt over everything that has happened...
And...its been 6 months now..
Teacher Pam along with 5 others thinks im not myself anymore..
Teacher Pam said she noticed that im like loosing the joy in me since 6 months ago..
And you know what..
I feel it too..
Im like always sooo upset these days...
And the reason is because of Pradeep..
He is like there..
Always stuck at the back of my heart and somewhere deep down my heart.
He is just there to ruin my life..
But...i still like him...I THINK...
I dont know luh..
This just sucks...
And thats not all...
I freaking miss my friend like crazy...
He really means a lot to me..
We were supposed to go through these kinda things together..
THATS WHAT HE TOLD ME!
And right now..
I need him..
My friend..
He is just not there....anymore...
Its really upsetting..
And right now, i cant stop crying...
I lost two very important people in my life...
I cant say anything any further
God..if you are really up there...just please....get me my friend back....
11:49 PM; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Its 1.49am in the morning and i cant sleep! *crys away!*
1:46 AM; unforgotten.Y
Monday, September 17, 2007
I came across this website....confucius say quotes... :
Be not ashamed of mistakes and thus make them crimes.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Mistakes]
Before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves.
Confucius
Everything has its beauty but not everyone sees it.
Confucius
Forget injuries, never forget kindnesses.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Kindness]
He who will not economize will have to agonize.
Confucius
I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand.
Confucius
Ignorance is the night of the mind, but a night without moon and star.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Ignorance]
It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop.
Confucius
Men's natures are alike, it is their habits that carry them far apart.
Confucius
Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in getting up every time we do.
Confucius
Respect yourself and others will respect you.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Respect]
Study the past if you would define the future.
Confucius
The superior man, when resting in safety, does not forget that danger may come. When in a state of security he does not forget the possibility of ruin. When all is orderly, he does not forget that disorder may come. Thus his person is not endangered, and his States and all their clans are preserved.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Security]
To be able under all circumstances to practice five things constitutes perfect virtue; these five things are gravity, generosity of soul, sincerity, earnestness and kindness.
Confucius
To see what is right and not to do it is want of courage.
Confucius
To see what is right, and not to do it, is want of courage or of principle.
Confucius
What the superior man seeks is in himself; what the small man seeks is in others.
Confucius
When anger rises, think of the consequences.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Anger]
When we see men of a contrary character, we should turn inwards and examine ourselves.
Confucius
Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart.
Confucius
They must often change who would be constant in happiness or wisdom.
Confucius, Analects
By nature, men are nearly alike; by practice, they get to be wide apart.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
Fine words and an insinuating appearance are seldom associated with true virtue.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
Have no friends not equal to yourself.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
- More quotations on: [Friendship]
He who exercises government by means of his virtue may be compared to the north polar star, which keeps its place and all the stars turn towards it.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
- More quotations on: [Exercise]
He who speaks without modesty will find it difficult to make his words good.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
- More quotations on: [Humility]
He with whom neither slander that gradually soaks into the mind, nor statements that startle like a wound in the flesh, are successful may be called intelligent indeed.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
Hold faithfulness and sincerity as first principles.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
- More quotations on: [Faith]
I am not one who was born in the possession of knowledge; I am one who is fond of antiquity, and earnest in seeking it there.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
Be not ashamed of mistakes and thus make them crimes.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Mistakes]
Before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves.
Confucius
Everything has its beauty but not everyone sees it.
Confucius
Forget injuries, never forget kindnesses.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Kindness]
He who will not economize will have to agonize.
Confucius
I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand.
Confucius
Ignorance is the night of the mind, but a night without moon and star.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Ignorance]
It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop.
Confucius
Men's natures are alike, it is their habits that carry them far apart.
Confucius
Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in getting up every time we do.
Confucius
Respect yourself and others will respect you.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Respect]
Study the past if you would define the future.
Confucius
The superior man, when resting in safety, does not forget that danger may come. When in a state of security he does not forget the possibility of ruin. When all is orderly, he does not forget that disorder may come. Thus his person is not endangered, and his States and all their clans are preserved.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Security]
To be able under all circumstances to practice five things constitutes perfect virtue; these five things are gravity, generosity of soul, sincerity, earnestness and kindness.
Confucius
To see what is right and not to do it is want of courage.
Confucius
To see what is right, and not to do it, is want of courage or of principle.
Confucius
What the superior man seeks is in himself; what the small man seeks is in others.
Confucius
When anger rises, think of the consequences.
Confucius
- More quotations on: [Anger]
When we see men of a contrary character, we should turn inwards and examine ourselves.
Confucius
Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart.
Confucius
They must often change who would be constant in happiness or wisdom.
Confucius, Analects
By nature, men are nearly alike; by practice, they get to be wide apart.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
Fine words and an insinuating appearance are seldom associated with true virtue.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
Have no friends not equal to yourself.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
- More quotations on: [Friendship]
He who exercises government by means of his virtue may be compared to the north polar star, which keeps its place and all the stars turn towards it.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
- More quotations on: [Exercise]
He who speaks without modesty will find it difficult to make his words good.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
- More quotations on: [Humility]
He with whom neither slander that gradually soaks into the mind, nor statements that startle like a wound in the flesh, are successful may be called intelligent indeed.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
Hold faithfulness and sincerity as first principles.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
- More quotations on: [Faith]
I am not one who was born in the possession of knowledge; I am one who is fond of antiquity, and earnest in seeking it there.
Confucius, The Confucian Analects
7:08 PM; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Today was the feast day in church.
Was nice...lots of singing and dancing and food.
I even saw Mr Teo selling chicken rice.. LOL
Halfway, Brenda, Tang, Bryan, Greg, Mat Ben and i went to starbucks to chill for a while.
Then Mat Ben went home and Cass came.
Then...the guys went home and us girls went for undergarments shopping.
And this song sang by someone from church today is still stuck in my head....
Stand By Me - Song Lyrics
As performed by Ben E. KingA
# 1 R&B and # 4 Top 40 hit from 1961
Re-released in 1986 for the movie of the same name and hit # 9 on the Top 40 charts
An excellent first dance song at weddings
When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No, I won't be afraid,
No, I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand,
Stand by me.
So darling darling, stand by me, oh, stand by me,
Oh, stand, stand by me, stand by me.
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Or the Mountain should crumble in the sea,
I won't cry,
I won't cry,
No I won't shed a tear.
Just as long as you stand, stand by me.
So ,darling, darling, stand by me, oh, stand by me
Oh, stand, stand by me, stand by me.
7:55 PM; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
I did my History prelims today...it was okay..i guess... After school, went home with Nishaa and met Kumari under my block at 7pm. We walked to Nee Soon CC to have tuition. Reached home around 10 plus. Argh! Tomorrow is Physics and POA paper 2. Can i do it? Im more or less ready for POA..But Physics? SIGHS...
I miss those times i used to stay up late in the night watching movies with my dad. I remember always watching Alley Mcbeal with my dad. I miss those times i used to go out with my dad. Those times we used to go for jouy rides, those times i used to follow my dad around while he visits his friends, those times he used to tell me stories, those times we used to snuggle in bed and ''wrestle'', those times we used to have our mini fights, those kisses i never failed to give you, those times i used to get pissed with you, those times when everything around me left me in the dark, the little things you would say or do that would light it up, those times you always managed to make me smile, those times..u WERE my main source of motivation...DADDY...I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY....if only things were different..if only mummy and you didnt get that divorce..how wonderful would life be for me now...:'(.
Watching ''Alley Mcbeal'' act in ''Brothers and Sisters'', made me think of this...=(
A permanent scar in my heart would be that im away from you....
I miss those times i used to stay up late in the night watching movies with my dad. I remember always watching Alley Mcbeal with my dad. I miss those times i used to go out with my dad. Those times we used to go for jouy rides, those times i used to follow my dad around while he visits his friends, those times he used to tell me stories, those times we used to snuggle in bed and ''wrestle'', those times we used to have our mini fights, those kisses i never failed to give you, those times i used to get pissed with you, those times when everything around me left me in the dark, the little things you would say or do that would light it up, those times you always managed to make me smile, those times..u WERE my main source of motivation...DADDY...I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY....if only things were different..if only mummy and you didnt get that divorce..how wonderful would life be for me now...:'(.
Watching ''Alley Mcbeal'' act in ''Brothers and Sisters'', made me think of this...=(
A permanent scar in my heart would be that im away from you....
12:00 AM; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, September 09, 2007
Recorded by "Cutting Crew"
Album: "Broadcast" - 1986
I keep looking for something I can't get
Broken hearts lie all around me
And I don't see an easy way out of this
Her diary, it sits on the bedside table
The curtains are closed, the cat's in the cradle
Who would've thought that a boy like me could come to this
(Chorus)
Oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said,
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been some kind of kiss
I should've walked away, I should've walked away
Is there any just cause for feeling like this
On the surface I'm a name on a list
I try to be discreet, but then blow it again
I've lost and found, it's my final mistake
She's loving by proxy, no give and all take'
Cause I've been thrilled to fantasy one too many times
(Chorus)
It was a long hot night
She made it easy, she made it feel right
But now it's over, the moment is gone
I followed my hands, not my head,
I know I was wrong
(Chorus)
Album: "Broadcast" - 1986
I keep looking for something I can't get
Broken hearts lie all around me
And I don't see an easy way out of this
Her diary, it sits on the bedside table
The curtains are closed, the cat's in the cradle
Who would've thought that a boy like me could come to this
(Chorus)
Oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said,
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been some kind of kiss
I should've walked away, I should've walked away
Is there any just cause for feeling like this
On the surface I'm a name on a list
I try to be discreet, but then blow it again
I've lost and found, it's my final mistake
She's loving by proxy, no give and all take'
Cause I've been thrilled to fantasy one too many times
(Chorus)
It was a long hot night
She made it easy, she made it feel right
But now it's over, the moment is gone
I followed my hands, not my head,
I know I was wrong
(Chorus)
3:57 PM; unforgotten.Y
8 September 2007 - Saturday.
Had tuition in the morning. Slept in the afternoon. And followed mummy to a wedding in the night. It was at Foo Chow building. The wedding was okay luh. The only highlight was that this cocasion guy..took off his shirt on stage while playing this game. WAH! DAMN SHOIK la his body. TEEHEEE!
9 September 2007 -TODAY!
Went to church in the morning. Met cass and had breakfast. Then went for mass with Cass, Shannon and Matthew Benedict. After mass, sat with the three of them and Nicole and Rajiv in the canteen. Both Shannon and Matthew Ben kept making a big fuss about how curry puffs are sooo good. Haha Cass was upset or something and Matthew said '' Go get a curry puff. It will make u feel better.'' LOL! Then Shannon and Matthew Benedict and i walked home. Its a good thing we live so near each other. And i had tutition. Tuition with Kumari just ended.
Events to look forward to :
1. Harri's birthday
2. Cassandra's 16th birthday party
3. Christine's wedding although its next year
4. The last paper of the O lvels.
5. SHOPPING LIKE CRAZY after the O levels
6. The possibility of going to India at the end of the year
7. More outings with Kumari and her friends
8. Jacinta's and my anniversary
9. Mummy's birthday - 25 October
10. Sheila and Alex's arrival in Singapore.
YAYNESS!
Had tuition in the morning. Slept in the afternoon. And followed mummy to a wedding in the night. It was at Foo Chow building. The wedding was okay luh. The only highlight was that this cocasion guy..took off his shirt on stage while playing this game. WAH! DAMN SHOIK la his body. TEEHEEE!
9 September 2007 -TODAY!
Went to church in the morning. Met cass and had breakfast. Then went for mass with Cass, Shannon and Matthew Benedict. After mass, sat with the three of them and Nicole and Rajiv in the canteen. Both Shannon and Matthew Ben kept making a big fuss about how curry puffs are sooo good. Haha Cass was upset or something and Matthew said '' Go get a curry puff. It will make u feel better.'' LOL! Then Shannon and Matthew Benedict and i walked home. Its a good thing we live so near each other. And i had tutition. Tuition with Kumari just ended.
Events to look forward to :
1. Harri's birthday
2. Cassandra's 16th birthday party
3. Christine's wedding although its next year
4. The last paper of the O lvels.
5. SHOPPING LIKE CRAZY after the O levels
6. The possibility of going to India at the end of the year
7. More outings with Kumari and her friends
8. Jacinta's and my anniversary
9. Mummy's birthday - 25 October
10. Sheila and Alex's arrival in Singapore.
YAYNESS!
3:43 PM; unforgotten.Y
7 September 2007
Its happening again! Im crying over Pradeep again. Melissa told me that they are not going on. Michelle told me the same cause she wanted to be friends. But Jeeviyan and Keeran said they are just that they want to keep it low profile. Life just sucks. If Jeeviyan knows about this, then wouldn’t the rest of the guys know this too? So im left in the dark again. Everyone knew the one thing I should know and I didn’t till now? FUCK! I cant stop crying. Crying and crying and crying. Its been like an hour and a half since I started crying. I want to stop. But I just cant! I thought I was over you..but now I find myself questioning myself again. Am I really? I hate the world! I hate everyone! I have never felt sooo depressed before. Have I been too nice that people are taking advantage of me? Maybe its time to change. The Christine you people know is slowly dying. The new Christine will reborn soon. And shes not gonna be nice anymore. Shes gonna be freaking mean! So watch it!
I just cant stop eating and shopping and bathing. I CANT STOP! I guess it’s a way to show how depressed and stressed up I am. SIGHS…..
Just now, I suddenly felt so stressed up and upset cause my sister was so mean to me that I went to the chapel to pray. I was the only one there. Thank god! I prayed and I felt better. I spent about 20 minutes in there. And I walked out of church feeling normal again. But now….im in another emotional breakdown. I need help. SERIOSULY! Ive even got thoughts on suicidal…sighs…
3:39 PM; unforgotten.Y
